Welcome To The Hellmouth
Opened: August 8, 2008
Welcome to Emily The Vampire Slayer, my name is Emily (surprised?) & this is my personal webspace that is free for me to say as I like in. You don't agree with my ramblings? That's fine, leave. I'm not out to offend or upset anyone but, like most, I'm very opiniated... that can often get in the way of my desire to be friends with everyone I meet because I won't drop my beliefs for anyone. Why should I? But feel free to take a look around and comment my blogs. Any questions, issues or complaints can be addressed here.
Child Of The Wilderness
24.09.08
Quick note, um, that title is a line from the credits song in the 2004 film version of The Phantom Of The Opera. The song is called 'Learn To Be Lonely' and I'm not going to talk too much about it just cos it makes me feel sad; I'll just brief you, it's basically about someone who has always been destined to be lonely and alone in the world and that they must accept their fate and learn to live with it. In some ways I often wonder if I'm relating to it, I do often feel in many ways I am different, yet not wrong like some people seem to believe. I often do better alone, feel better alone without the rest of the world... maybe because, inside my head, alone is the last thing I really am.
Another thing, I am ill. This is never good, but I'm also worried; I'm afraid I won't catch up on what I've missed even when I promise myself I will, to be honest, saying that aloud does make me feel a lot better for some reason.
I've said before, in doubtful situations I do this thing where I think of the worst possible thing that could happen and then find a solution to it; that way, even the worst possible case has been solved. I've come up with lots of different stuff in my head about this one. 1) I fail the whole year (unlikely) and then all I do is take the year again, its not as big a deal as it sounds, 2) I don't come out with the grades I wanted - I either take the whole year again or settle for a different University... and they do go on. Part of me wonders, is this really what you want? People keep saying to me: "Do you know what you want to do yet? Any idea?" I reply no. But thats wrong, I do know. I want to do Glamour modelling, that is really what I want, no joke. But there arises other issues. First, I can't do it until I'm 18 and I have nothing else on hand in the meantime. Secondly, what if I don't make it? Because, if I follow that dream now it would mean leaving College and putting together a portfolio ready for when I'm old enough, but if I fail in that career path, if it doesn't work out I'm well and truly screwed... I would have a failed career and no College grades behind me. So I guess the only option is to do my best in College but keep my head up for the future and try and get into Glamour modelling when the time is right.
That, however, is not all I have to say; this is probably a good thing seeing as I haven't had a ramble in a while. I would like to talk about some everyday life stuff that isn't so God damn serious. Like Rocky Horror! Oh God, I had an amazing time with Kafie, Jake and Copley; and we even met up with Ania, Lucinda and Lucy from High School. Both Lucinda and Lucy are bisexuals and Lucy made a verging on obscene comment about my corset.
The show was fantastic, especially when we had to dance and sing and shout things out. There was this guy dressed in drag who I thought was a girl at first until he spoke in a really deep voice saying: "I'm Bob." I have took a multitude of pictures which have gained a lot of attention from the population of Bebo.
Also, I'm reading the graphic novel 'Watchmen' which is really fantastic, or I think so anyway; it just seems really clever, especially the theories about the world and the fragility of time. I would reccommend to anyone who appreciates a bit of clever analysis. Off that topic, I guess you thought it pretty random and weird that I came up with that line from the Phantom of the Opera film, it's just cos I've been it watching over and over whilst I've been ill and I never before realised how gorgeous Gerard Butler is or how sexy the song 'The Point Of No Return' is. And, it looks like in the upcoming October holidays we may be going down to see it in the West End - I can't wait! Um, though, I do have to get a job... I've applied at Argos and heard nothing back, I've filled in a form for Woolworths and not been able to hand it in because I've been sick. Those seem to be going down the pan... and I really need the money... um.
Anyways, I have to talk about the development of my fanlistings, because I've become addicted and I have loads that I've adopted and applied for and been accepted.
That's mainly why I haven't blogged in ages because I've had to work on them so much and I still have so many to do. I should be okay to blog more often now though because I've created an archive page so I don't have to add each link to every page when I post a new blog. I should have thought of this idea before, it's simple but clever... oh yes, I love it. Oh, and my cousins got a new dog, I forgot to mention that... he's not got a name yet but we've covered many (Sam, Reuben, Charlie, Frank, Basil, Toby...) and he's absolutely gorgeous; I don't usually bother much about Cavalier King Charles because I don't think they're overly cute, but this one is... he's so adorable! What else do I have to say... anything? No? Okay.